Nov 09

PROMPT: Bad Drug

Bad Signal

Someone’s left you a voicemail message, but all you can make out are the last words: “I’m sorry. I should’ve told you months ago. Bye.” Who is it from, and what is this about? – Daily Post

“Hey there April, it’s you old friend 6MP here. You know, the chemo drug you were on. Sorry I went toxic on you in the spring. Totally my bad. Just a few things you should probably know now that you are kicking me out of your system:

All the hair you lost, it’ll start to grow back and it’ll come it super curly. Good luck with that. Oh, the overall length of you hair? It’ll be months before you start to see any noticeable change.

Your face is going to breakout like a teenager’s on picture day. Anything you do to try to fight it will just make it worse.

All your joints, they are going to swell. I mean puffy to the point of visibility. Making a fist, not going to happen. Sorry about that.

The Crohn’s disease? The thing I was managing? That is totally going to come out of remission. And it’s going to suck. Again, my bad.

Oh, and the worst thing that is going to happen to you is you are going to show high liver counts for a good 6 months after. It’s just me working my way out of your system. It’s no big deal, so don’t freak out about it or go crazy doing a lot of test trying to figure out the cause. It’s just me.

I’m sorry. I should’ve told you months ago. Bye.”

To quote The Wedding Singer “Gee, you know that information… really would’ve been more useful to me *yesterday.*” I DID go crazy with a ton of tests trying to figure out why I had high liver counts. And my joints did swell to the point of unbearable pain. I did stress about my hair and breakouts. Most of all, I loved one day getting punched in the stomach by pain from the Crohn’s saying “I’m back”! Stupid medication. Sometimes they do more harm than good.


Nov 06

TBT: Sounds of the Seasons

Once November 1st hits, I start to break out the Christmas music. It helps to lift my spirits and just puts me in a good mood. For this week’s throwback, here is a piece I did on my old blog, “The Land of Melted Clocks” about my favorite Christmas music. It was originally published on December 21, 2011.



I LOVE Christmas music, as most people do. There are only a handful of songs I don’t care for (“Christmas Wrapping” I’m looking at you!). Like most people I have a list of my favorites that don’t include Bing, Nat, and Johnny… they’ll always be tops with me and most everyone else. This list is more of my more personal favorites. Now my everyday music taste is mostly Top 40 stuff with my favorites being OneRepublic, Maroon 5, and R.E.M, so some of these titles might come as a surprise… but I find with Christmas music the older the better!


A Christmas Together by John Denver and The Muppets – As a child growing up in a Muppet loving family this is a must to listen to many, many times during the holiday season.


Christmas by Alabama – I’m not generally drawn to some of the classic country artist, but my parents are. I grew up listening to this album and the older I get the better they get. Some of the songs are just so beautiful!


Once Upon a Christmas By Kenny Rogers and Dolly Parton – Just like Alabama’s album, I grew up on not only Kenny and Dolly’s album but also their Christmas TV special. It was tradition to watch it every year… until the tape started to wear out. Thankfully, my brother managed to get it copied on to DVDs for all of us!


Christmas Portrait by The Carpenters – The “Christmas Song”… does anything else really need saying?


Brand New Year by SheDaisy – Some more modern artists make my list too. I like this album because the songs are different, catchy, and their song “Twist of the Magi” with Rascal Flats is excellent.


Acoustic Hearts Of Winter by Aly & AJ – These sisters are super talented and their versions of some of the classics are really wonderful.


Merry Christmas With Love by Clay Aiken – The American Idol that should have been. I was a big Claymate during his season and when his Christmas album came out I knew I had to have it. It was even better than I expected, producing two of my all time favorite holiday songs “Mary, Did You Know” and “Merry Christmas With Love”.

There you have it, my favorite Christmas albums! Now it’s time to load up the iPod, turn up the volume, and get into the holiday spirit!

Nov 05

PROMPT: This Is Just To Say

By Heart

You’re asked to recite a poem (or song lyrics) from memory — what’s the first one that comes to mind? Does it have a special meaning, or is there another reason it has stayed, intact, in your mind? – Daily Post

Being asked to recite a poem from memory would be a near impossible task for me. I know chunks of a couple different poems, such as “The Road Not Taken” by Robert Frost, “The Raven” by Edgar Allan Poe, and “Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night” by Dylan Thomas. I remember parts of these because I adore these poems. I am just not able to remember them in their entirety. My memory just doesn’t work that way.

There is, however, one poem that I do remember most of the words to, and that poem is “This is Just to Say” by William Carlos Williams.

This Is Just To Say
William Carlos Williams

I have eaten
the plums
that were in
the icebox

and which
you were probably
for breakfast

Forgive me
they were delicious
so sweet
and so cold

The reason this poem is so embedded in my memory… an 11th grade English assignment.

When it came to English classes during my school years, we didn’t always get along. I hated anything that had to do with spelling & vocabulary, grammar, assigned reading, and tests. I did enjoy research papers, creative writing assignments, and special projects. Those three things were what saved me from failing year after year.

During my Junior year, we were assigned a project where we had to pick a poem, analyze it, and give a presentation to the class. I chose “This Is Just To Say” and if I do say so myself, I kicked serious butt on my presentation. I compared the poem to life with a younger brother and the fights over the good snacks in the house. I even managed to find a recording of the author reading the poem to play to the class. Needless to say, I scored an A and have “This Is Just To Say” is permanently etched into my brain to this day.


Oct 13

Excuse Me While I Have a Fangirl Moment

I got to meet River Song (Alex Kingston) and Rory Williams (Arthur Darvill) at New York Comic Con! They are both ridiculously good-looking, very nice, and I totally lost my ability to speak when I got near them. All I managed to get out of my mouth was “hi”. Definitely one of the highlights of my life!

River Rorywm


Aug 29

30 Week Challenge: Week 22 — Your Current Relationship

When it comes to relationships, I’m not a one person kind of girl. I like to play the field. I have a lot of needs and it takes different people to fill them. There is B, where it’s all about the butterflies in my stomach. D, D gets my blood pumping. It’s all about chemistry with R, while T gets my mind. When it comes to telling all my secrets, J is my goto guy. Then there is N. N gets the big picture.

See, I play the field. The scientific field. These people at all my doctors. They are the people I see the most outside of my immediate family. My gastrointestinal, hematologist, psychiatrist, neurologist, therapist, and my primary care doctor. I cannot expect to have a heathy romantic relationship with a guy unless I am heathy myself. And I’m not. I’m far from it. So for now, I have no current relationship in the standard terms.

I just have myself.


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